The Nursing Baby - Your Breastfeeding Stories

I, as so many of you, read LLL's book faithfully during my pregnancy. I read it over and over, highlighting what I considered could serve as quick reference once the baby arrived. When I was told I'd have a c-section, A BIG DREAM was taken away from me. It was a traumatic experience. We roomed-in and I had the hardest time getting him to latch on. Recovering from my birth experience, both physically and emotionally, was very painful. My only consolation was that at least I had been succesful at nursing him AND THAT HE WAS HEALTHY. I was reluctant about the family bed, but I had instinctively been practicing all the other aspects of Attachment Parenting. I still resented my c-section, and tried to feel better by just loving and holding my beautiful boy. When Enrique was 1 month old, the most shocking news were given to us. I had been secretly suspecting something was wrong with him. Enrique was blind .ANOTHER BIG DREAM TAKEN AWAY. You can try to imagine what we felt as parents, but you can NEVER get an idea unless you have lived this. We started our long journey for a cure (we live in Puerto Rico)to Philadelphia, Miami, more doctors here and there.We never carried a bottle with us, and after stressful tests and examinations, nursing was a reassuring ritual, it brought us together and gave us both comfort and peace. All that time I felt I have such an intimate bond with Enrique, he finds my breast without any trouble and does what comes naturally.I will definitely not be the one to decide when to wean. He will get a better chance to be a healthy, smart, happy kid and if he wants to go on 5 years or more, no problem! My beautiful, smiling boy is happy knowing that mommy is always there for him, and though mommy will never get to see the love in his eyes, everything is just fine : his smile says it all.